It is clear this year God is working on my heart and revealing to me by His Word the sin in my life of not finding satisfaction in Him. Let me explain. Three particular acts confirm this. The first took place at the start of the year where my pastor began preaching through the book of Philippians. Additionally, our church made the decision to kick off the year by implementing small groups. This led to the second act as the first series lined up for these small groups was a study called Treasure: Jesus is Worth Everything. The third, and final, confirmation came as I received a free review copy of the book, Idols of the Heart, by Elyse Fitzpatrick.
A consistent theme became apparent through the sermon series, small group study, and book. The sermon series in Philippians has directed my heart towards the joy to be found in Christ. The small group study has reminded me Jesus is the true treasure in life and He alone is worth it. The book by Elyse Fitzpatrick revealed idols I have hidden in my heart.
Joy. Treasure. Idols. How do these three things work together? What we treasure we will find our joy in. The problem is we too often treasure lesser things and, as a result, fail to obtain genuine joy. In my life, I allow my joy to be sought in the idols of this life, in things which will not ultimately satisfy. The biggest known idol in my life is my desire for a relationship with a young lady.
Let me be clear. Marriage is a gift and it is a good thing. I desire marriage. To desire marriage is not sinful (1 Cor 7:9, 36). But to desire it too much is. And that is where I am at. My joy, or lack thereof, is in my relationship status. My longing for a relationship with a young lady overrides my longing for the Lord. The greatest treasure in my life is something I am still searching for, a relationship with a girl, instead of something I already have, a relationship with God. My treasure is an idol and ultimately a joy-killer because my joy is not in Christ alone. Simply put, I am pursuing the wrong treasure. Only when I realize Christ is my treasure will I find ultimate satisfaction for my longing and joy in my life. I know I am a work in progress but I thank God He continues to work on me, revealing my sin so that I may repent of it and place my trust in the One who will always be there for me and who will truly satisfy me.
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I believe that God knows you, loves you, and wants for you what He wants for all of us. . .to be more like His Son.
I feel this way too! Looking for a godly man who loves me for who I am. To not feel rejected anymore. It is hard when all my friends are married and have families and I am 32 and not married.
Ashly, I am grateful to the Lord you were able to relate. I certainly know the struggle and feeling of rejection too. My hope in sharing posts like these is to be an encouragement to bring comfort to others where God has brought comfort to me (2 Corinthians 1:3-7), even while I still struggle. The Psalms do my heart well because there the circumstances are not ideal but the Psalmist still trusts in the Lord. I pray God would give me His daily grace for the struggle.